Slow down

“Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going to fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” Eddie Cantor

I often wonder what i am missing in life by speeding through it never letting my window down to take in the fresh air. Have to remember although I can drive 65, sometimes its better to slow down and take my time. i have been so busy lately I tend to get wrapped up in my little time warp and get dizzy with the amount of things that are going on in our daily lives. I am going to try to committ to slowing down for 2 weeks on vacation next week. Classes are going to be over next week, My Hannah is 4 so that big ordeal is over, Isabella will be 1 soon we are going to Florida to celebrate her birthday and go to Disney and have a fun time scuba diving and swimming. Then I come back and go back to school for summer. GRRR...I have to remember although I am going fast now eventually I will pit stop after school is done and prepare for my next long term road trip, EMPLOYMENT. I have the most amazing family so I while still speeding I will still sing in the car, and turn around to smile at my beautiful babies, while holding my husbands hand

Creating my own reality

What are rose colored glasses? Sometimes I wish I had a pair, funny thing is that they are free! $0 down, no monthly fee...or is there? If I could see my world through rose colored glasses I would paint my own reality. Here's the thing people will just either see you as full of optimism or a fashion forward kind of thinker (yes you can actually buy some cute glasses and call it fashion, heck spandex has been called fashion)

My whole life I have heard people say you can't have your cake and eat it to (ok may be true), pull up your big girl panties and deal with it.Well maybe their glasses are no good, maybe they are blue and get them down, I shall let them try mine. Because what if I just don't want to pull up my panties? IS it wrong to take a day,a week, or even a month in my glasses for a break from normalcy, a break from all the stuff that clutters my mind? I want to put my heads in the clouds and wait for the skittles to fall down. So, I like to be commando, and I really love cake with buttercream frosting so I am probably going to eat it even if its not good forme (metaphorically). And FYI skittles are delicioso especially when they fall from the sky.

Maybe reality is better but, sometimes, wouldn't it be fun to put on your glasses and forget about the calories in the cake its calorie free. HA. No, you are not failing you have your glasses on today you are everything everyone wants you to be. Here's the thing somedays i would just like to alter my reality a bit, (*clause*not my kids of course they are AMAZING) I know that this is not a healthy attitude maybe I need to take them off and deal, but somedays the sunrise is nicer from my glasses than the dark of the night. I don't sleep much my brain is abnormal (like in Young Frankenstein "what braind did you get? Abby abby Normal, yes I think thats what it was), it never stops long enough to let me.

There are lots of things in my life that I am so thankful for. My life is sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows without the glasses. But today instead of facing the world in a 3D vivid color pallet I am hitting my shades, and gonna deal with it all tomorrow. After all tomorrow is another day. Just don't let me keep them on to long, I do have things I am going to have to deal with eventually, and they are not good to wear all the time, the may mask the pain, but they are taking away the very precious time in your lives. I just know that tomorrow when I take my glasses off and deal with it all I will be just fine, because thats how I roll strong woman, determined woman, a woman who deserves truth, love, JOY, and happiness.

*CAUTION* rose colored glasses do not take away the pain, the glasses come off eventually, it prolongs the inevitable, and does not mix well with alcohol.

“Rose-colored glasses are never made in bifocals. Nobody wants to read the small print in dreams.” Anne Landers

Merry month of March

Can it really be a beautiful 80 degrees out? Ah.... Busy weeks are upon us. We are patiently waiting Michaels MED board so we can get on with the FAA. WE just want out of the military, this is taking forever. We are ready to get out and start our real lives. We are applying for seperation we will see if it goes through. The girls are gorwing fast, Hannah is gonna be 4 in a little over a week, bella is 10.5 months old now. Gosh time goes by to fast. Anyhow we are still here still trudging forward. The two busiest people we know.. lol.. Time is moving by to fast. I keep trying to imagine our lives out of the military and it just seems so right. OF course who knows until it happens. Michael has been in 10 years, its going to be a big adjustment but one we are ready to make. We have been trying to get out for years. Thankful for all the military has offered us, but it has expired. Good money on the outside, and the freedom to make choices. Anyways, maybe we will take the job at Seymour Johnson NOT! Loserville. Ok gonna take a nap super tired midnight bed and 6am rise can wear a person outl

Another lonely day

These lyrics are really good.
Ben Harper "Another Lonely Day"

Yes indeed I'm alone again


and here comes emptiness crashing in

it's either love or hate

I can't find in between

cause I've been with witches

and I have been with a queen



it wouldn't have worked out any way

so now it's just another lonely day

further along we just may

but for now it's just another lonely day



wish there was something

I could say or do

I can resist anything

but temptation from you

but I'd rather walk alone

than chase you around

I'd rather fall myself

than let you drag me down



it wouldn't have worked out any way

and now it's just another lonely day

further along we just may

but for now it's just another lonely day



yesterday seems like a life ago

cause the one I love

today I hardly know

you I held so close in my heart oh dear

grow further from me

with every falling tear



it wouldn't have worked out any way

so now it's just another lonely day

further along we just may

but for now it's just another lonely day

Springtime

It's spring fever. That is what the name of it is. And when you've got it, you want - oh, you don't quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so! ~Mark Twain

So it feels like spring here in Mississippi already..I LOVE spring we plant our garden: tomaotes, carrots, peas, onions, okra, cabbage, and basil.... and the air is so crisp (minus the copious amounts of pollen that have taken up residence on everything). I think I like spring mre than summer. All the pretty flowers are coming back the trees are waking up from hibernation. It is almost as if you can hear stretching their tired limbs. I really do love spring. Its high 70s here, still cool at night.  We bought the girls this HUGE blow up water park for their birthdays I can't wait to use it. I am so excited to lay at the beach and read my color nook. Ahhh...yes! Spring time is here. People get a bounce in their step, flip-flops become the new fashion accessory, and we all go back to the gym for last minute tone ups.

Spring also brings my babies birthdays. Hannah is going to be 4 in like 3 weeks (EEK) We are having a water party with a strawberry shortcake theme. Mrs. Isabella will be 1 in May(double eek). then theres Easter in between. Its gonna be a busy spring, i wounldn't know what to do if we weren't busy. Anyhow i hope everyone is stretching their limbs and geraing up for a great spring.

Woman behind the mirror

Pablo Picasso wrote, "Are we to paint what's on the face, what's inside the face, or what's behind it? So when I look at my face in the mirror I don't just see that my eyebrows aren't waxed today, or that I have an imperfection, or even the freckle on the left corner of my mouth. I see the inside. I see through the cornea to the soul. My soul my heart its had its beatings, but my reflection tells  story of being a face with a definition a story of my life. I have a few crows feet but those are probably from all the sun I got swimming growing up. I have a little dent by my temple, I am 100% sure it was chicken pox that i scratched because I am obsessive. Inside my mouth I chew the sides of my tongue those are battle scars of my mind I chew because I have so much going on its my outlet when I am brain dumping. These imperfections that we see are not imperfections they are life stories. Some we would rather hide and we do with makeup and mascara, even a smile sometimes, but all in all I love all of my imperfection they help to shape and define who I am today

memories

I was just thinking back on the last almost 5 years, being married to MIchael and my two beautiful daughters. They are so amazing. I cant believe Hannah is going to be 4 soon. It really seems like just yesterday. It has been the best 4 years of my life having her in it. I never knew what i was missing till she was here. Then there is m sweet spunky little Isabella. What a child. Every minute of the last 9 months has been better than I could have ever imagine. Hannah is the BEST big sister, the sweetest and most caring of big sisters. Isabella is so enamored with Hannah. She would follow her, and does, anywhere. I am so blessed to have them as my children. I love their little faces, their smell, their laughs. I love everything about them.

Anyhow so LOTS coming up. We are leaving next Friday for North carolina for a week mini vacation to see family. Then we come back and its Hannahs birthday, then Easter, and my Bella Boone turns 1....SO much happening in the next 2 months. Exams, midterms. Ahhh...I will be so happy when my B.A. is done. Well have to run cleaning the house Michaels mom is going to be here tomorrow haven't seen her in like 4 years.