End of Summer

So we are coming to the end of summer, sort of bittersweet. I am looking forward to a little cooler temps its well over the 100's here and HOT! Sucks cause you can't really take the kids out to do anything but play in water. Fall is on its way. It has been busy busy here. Hannahs excelling in ballet and tap shes so cute, Isabella is quite the chatterbox now and saying lots of new words she also knows most of her body parts now. Hannah told me today that she is a genuis. Its been hard since MIchael has been gone but I am suprised at how much stuff I can do all by myself. Never the less he is missed. I just started back to the fall semester at USM almost done will be applying for graduation soon. I have 5 classes this semseter so I am sure I will stay very busy. We hvae lots planned this fall. Halloween is coming I cant wait, then for Thanksgiving (which is MIchaels bday) we are going to Calloway Gardens in GA with the whole fam damily to see their light show and spend THanksgiving there in a cabin. SO looking forward to that, but not the drive. RIght after that its going to be Christmas we are hoping MIchael will be here hes still working out all of the details the base he is at is closing so he should be able to as long as there is enough manning. IF not he will be home for New YEars. We may celebrate Christmas in Florida I don't know thats a lot of stuff for Santa to bring to FL and bring back :) I am glad the door the military is finally closed sort of. in a year they will decide if they want to keep him temporarily retired or retire him fully. I hate the military and want to affiliation with them anymore and hopefully Michael wont have to deal with them either. Well got to go get Hannah in her ballet and tap clothes. I can't wait to see my little ballerina.

5 years...

Victor Hugo wrote to his wife, “When two souls, which have sought each other for, however long in the throng, have finally found each other ...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are... begins on earth and continues forever in heaven. This union is love, true love... a religion, which defines the loved one, whose life comes from devotion and passion, and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights. This is the love, which you inspire in me... Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels; but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension.”

I have been happily married to my husband for 5 years.
WoW! Can you believe it?
Victor Hugo was on to something there, he write what onlythe heart knows. I think our souls have always been trying to find each other and all of our lives have lead up to the moment that we could join each other. There is no sould, no heart I would rather be tetherd to for life. I have the most amazing husbad and best friend, I married a man that is the best father. If there is a checklist (never had one obviously look at my ex's) he met and exceeds all of my criteria.

My life with Michael has been a series of moments that are woven together to form a life that I am proud of. Moments have defined who we are as a couple and made us as strong as we are today. The night he asked me to marry him, the moment I said 'I Do', The moment I told him we were pregnant twice, the look in his eyes when we saw those beautiful babies for the first time, all the I love you's, the tears, the laughter. These are teh moments I cherish, these are the moments that define the couple that we are today. We are strong and united we are  unstoppable. My life did not truly begin until he came into my life. He makes me a better person, mother, friend. I wake up everyday wanting to be better than the day before and better the next. He inspires me, he is my Hugo. I love him everydya more than the last and I am going to wake up tomorrow and love him for another reason. I wish others could be so lucky to have a man like mine. I am looking forward to eternity because our love will surpass the lives here on earth. I cannot wait to be old with him!
Happy 5 year Anniversary

almost time

When they say that time passes you b y they mean it. Years ago seemed like just yesterday and yet years have still gone by. I am so excited Michael is now no longer in the military medically retired. YEAH! He has been referred for two air traffic jobs that he applied for with the DoD Homestead, Fl and Eglin AFB. Unfortunatly he has decided to go with Midwest because they are paying him so much money. SO MUCH MONEY! It is not all about the money of course but its a lot. We will be financially set at the end of a year for quite a while. It is also so I can finish my criminal justice bachelors. I am so close 8 classes 2 semesters Fall is almost here and I grauduate in Spring. But a year away is going to be hard he gets 2-2 week paid vacations they provide the plane tickets and everything so we will see him every 4.5 months. The kids are going to have a really hard time with it as well as myself. He leaves this sunday the 14th for Kansas City for 2 days then he flys to Shaw AFB for 2 days then he has a flight to Kuwait but he's going to Al Asad Iraq until Christmas until that base closes then he goes on to another base. I have mixed feelings about him going but I think its the best choice for our fmaily now then hes guaranteed a job here in the states and he will be they said 70-100% disabled thru the VA and thats another paycheck to just sit in the bank and we get retirement from the military. So we are all hopful this will all work out I am bummed our 5 year anniversary he will be in Shaw AFB, but what can you do? 5 years...amazing right! I am so excited.

Summers end

Its almost the end of July which means soon summer will be over and life as we have known it will all be different. Michaels official retirement is August 23rd of next month I know we are all excited about that, and the government is going to be paying us forever, hes going the the desert for a year and at the years end we ought to be better than well off. It is a hard trade. Michael has two amazing kids. They are not going to understand why daddy is going. It will be very hard I will be a single mother of two kids, I still have to finish school so they will have a nanny at nights for a few hours. Its a trade off now thats hard, but later will be most advantageous. Its going to be a change but its for the best. We move into our new 1700 sq ft apartment next week. I am pretty exctied about that we were gong to do a house, but I have never lived alone and it makes me nervous,, so we are living in a gated apartment complex that cost me more than a house. Its all happening so fast, I have 4 classees this summer semester-almost done, should all be A's of course. On a happy note one that I am very proud of 5 years this August. Wow! I know.  5 years. There have been many laughs, a few tears, joyous moments, 2 amazing children, and a small lifetime together already. I am excited for the day August 18th we can say 5 years. god has a plan for us and ours seems to be pretty good!

New beginnings

After 10 long years in the USAF, our time here is just about done like within 60 days of almost done. This is what we have been praying for for 2 years. We are blessed. They are going to TDRL hime (temporary medical retirement) we retain all our benifits and a paycheck as an added bonus. He is going to the desert on a contract for 1 year so I can finish my school before we leave Mississippi. My education is so important to me and I am like 7.5 months from graduation just 2 semesters left. Besides that financially we will be fairly well off its a lot of money. But in lew of that we will be missing him terribly. He gets 2 paid vacatiosn for 2 weeks at a time, but even with that he will be dearly missed. We are moving out of base housing in the next 2 weeks and I am excited I rented an apartment in Long Beach like 2 miles from my school, its a really nice apartment 1700 sq ft. Plenty for the girls and I, was gonna rent a house but I dont want all the upkeep and I feel safer behind a locked gate. Even though we have been wanting this for so long its so strange that it is all going to be gone in a sense, he will never return to active duty but we are sort of lingering they can do the TRL for the next 5 years, great as long as they continue it we get 3 paychecks the desert, VA, and the base, and anytime the government wants to give us money for no reason is ok with me. My husband has served 2 tours in Iraq its the least they can do. So thanks to everyone for all the prayers and concern. This is going to be a good thing. From there he will work in the states we just can't decide on the state we want to stay in FL, NC, SC...who kows. What I do know is that we are so very blessed, great amazing children and an amazing husband August will be 5 years....wow...

Summer classes are almost over and I am trying hard to stay on top of them even in lieu of the mounting things that we have to get done. I am hoping to not fall below at least B's but am expecting A's.  I am an A student I don't think I should have less than that. I am an honor student, I intend to graduate an honor student. August 5th I am so stoked up I am flying out all by myself to see my lifey in North Carolina and even though its Friday, Sat, and fly back Sunday I am so exctied. But this is the first time I have ever been away from my kids over night. Its going to be hard but necessary. I need a break with my bestest friend. We are all in such a good place right now. Things are happening. Hannahs going to preschool, Isabella is a terror of a 1 year old and certanitly keeps mommy on her toes. Life is such a blessing and we will continue to thank god everyday for it.

Will keep everyone updated, but for now....so much to do.

Truth

     Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything.

Are we really here to seek the truth or our perception of the truth. We could say that the sky is blue but maybe someone else things its azul (i like crayola its the kid in me) now their truth may be slightly altered from what our reality or perception is but ones truth is not the others truth. Instead of arguing with people who seek to see the aquamarine in life we should applaud the differences and thank the starts we have people out there who do not just accept what someone else says as the truth. If we did this America would still be young and the world would still be flat. It is the few people who seek their own truth or to be the opposition pushing for a new truth an addendum to the norm. After all truth is just the state of being the case. So lets argue the case...I say I need to lose a bit more weight, my husband thinks i look great the way I am well his truth is jaded by love, lust, marriage, etc. Or from a more philosophical stand point his nature and nurture as a child has altered his perception of the way he sees things. I perhaps was raised to enjoy skinny and raised outside of the box. Plate said, "And isn't it a bad thing to be deceived about the truth, and a good thing to know what the truth is? For I assume that by knowing the truth you mean knowing things as they really are." Maybe it is good to be deceived as clinically I should lose 10-15 more pounds but were he not deceived by the truth perhaps his love would not be as great, or his lust as strong. Truth is relative in the grand scheme of things, the loss of trying to find the truth for ourselves, politically, environmentally, etc. is sad. Although we may never all ascertain the same answer or reasonably deduce logic to the same end point change and truth demand that we keep doing so. Seek the truth even if what it come to be is not he answer you hypothesized. When in the Scientific Method we get a solution other than what was hypothesized we get the change to figure out how to change, how to grow, and how to reevaluate our stances.

Slow down

“Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going to fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” Eddie Cantor

I often wonder what i am missing in life by speeding through it never letting my window down to take in the fresh air. Have to remember although I can drive 65, sometimes its better to slow down and take my time. i have been so busy lately I tend to get wrapped up in my little time warp and get dizzy with the amount of things that are going on in our daily lives. I am going to try to committ to slowing down for 2 weeks on vacation next week. Classes are going to be over next week, My Hannah is 4 so that big ordeal is over, Isabella will be 1 soon we are going to Florida to celebrate her birthday and go to Disney and have a fun time scuba diving and swimming. Then I come back and go back to school for summer. GRRR...I have to remember although I am going fast now eventually I will pit stop after school is done and prepare for my next long term road trip, EMPLOYMENT. I have the most amazing family so I while still speeding I will still sing in the car, and turn around to smile at my beautiful babies, while holding my husbands hand