Moving on...

LOOK AT MY AMAZING FAMILY! HOW BLESSED AM I?

So finally i feel like i can move on. I finally am dealing with my issues with Guy. It has hung with me this hatred like a sack of potatoes on my back. It is hard hating someone so much. Not to mention everytime someone yells or gets mad I have to wonder. Abuse does strange things to a person who thought they were so strong. I realized I am not I am quite fragile. Which was so hard for me. I am not unbreakable. So Instead of dealing with thta after my divorce I turned it into constructive hate. Heres the thing I love Michael so so so much and my family and my girls. And I would have never had those things being married to him. So I didn't want that luggage anymore. Michael always supports me he said if you need to fly there and confront him you do that. He knows how profoundly that abuse changed my life. So my solution email him (much cheaper a solution). I didn't care about his response just needed to get it out told him he didn't even have to read it I was doing it for me. I never got that closure to tell him how what he did affected me so badly. So I did. and of course he responded. He was quite plesant. I wont share the email, but it was nice. i finally feel free of all of that. Free to continue on with my life happy and healthy with my family. I have to believe the awful things he did to me always come back to that person. I pride myself on being a good person espceially to others and I maintain that no matter what some man did to me. I am strong.

I can't believe August will be 4 years married. WoW! We have the most amazing two daughters. Hee thinks we need more, my body disagrees. I can't to see who they are in life. I hope to inspire them and help them to be strong women also. LIfe is good, its too short, but it is so good.