New beginnings

After 10 long years in the USAF, our time here is just about done like within 60 days of almost done. This is what we have been praying for for 2 years. We are blessed. They are going to TDRL hime (temporary medical retirement) we retain all our benifits and a paycheck as an added bonus. He is going to the desert on a contract for 1 year so I can finish my school before we leave Mississippi. My education is so important to me and I am like 7.5 months from graduation just 2 semesters left. Besides that financially we will be fairly well off its a lot of money. But in lew of that we will be missing him terribly. He gets 2 paid vacatiosn for 2 weeks at a time, but even with that he will be dearly missed. We are moving out of base housing in the next 2 weeks and I am excited I rented an apartment in Long Beach like 2 miles from my school, its a really nice apartment 1700 sq ft. Plenty for the girls and I, was gonna rent a house but I dont want all the upkeep and I feel safer behind a locked gate. Even though we have been wanting this for so long its so strange that it is all going to be gone in a sense, he will never return to active duty but we are sort of lingering they can do the TRL for the next 5 years, great as long as they continue it we get 3 paychecks the desert, VA, and the base, and anytime the government wants to give us money for no reason is ok with me. My husband has served 2 tours in Iraq its the least they can do. So thanks to everyone for all the prayers and concern. This is going to be a good thing. From there he will work in the states we just can't decide on the state we want to stay in FL, NC, SC...who kows. What I do know is that we are so very blessed, great amazing children and an amazing husband August will be 5 years....wow...

Summer classes are almost over and I am trying hard to stay on top of them even in lieu of the mounting things that we have to get done. I am hoping to not fall below at least B's but am expecting A's.  I am an A student I don't think I should have less than that. I am an honor student, I intend to graduate an honor student. August 5th I am so stoked up I am flying out all by myself to see my lifey in North Carolina and even though its Friday, Sat, and fly back Sunday I am so exctied. But this is the first time I have ever been away from my kids over night. Its going to be hard but necessary. I need a break with my bestest friend. We are all in such a good place right now. Things are happening. Hannahs going to preschool, Isabella is a terror of a 1 year old and certanitly keeps mommy on her toes. Life is such a blessing and we will continue to thank god everyday for it.

Will keep everyone updated, but for now....so much to do.

Truth

     Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything.

Are we really here to seek the truth or our perception of the truth. We could say that the sky is blue but maybe someone else things its azul (i like crayola its the kid in me) now their truth may be slightly altered from what our reality or perception is but ones truth is not the others truth. Instead of arguing with people who seek to see the aquamarine in life we should applaud the differences and thank the starts we have people out there who do not just accept what someone else says as the truth. If we did this America would still be young and the world would still be flat. It is the few people who seek their own truth or to be the opposition pushing for a new truth an addendum to the norm. After all truth is just the state of being the case. So lets argue the case...I say I need to lose a bit more weight, my husband thinks i look great the way I am well his truth is jaded by love, lust, marriage, etc. Or from a more philosophical stand point his nature and nurture as a child has altered his perception of the way he sees things. I perhaps was raised to enjoy skinny and raised outside of the box. Plate said, "And isn't it a bad thing to be deceived about the truth, and a good thing to know what the truth is? For I assume that by knowing the truth you mean knowing things as they really are." Maybe it is good to be deceived as clinically I should lose 10-15 more pounds but were he not deceived by the truth perhaps his love would not be as great, or his lust as strong. Truth is relative in the grand scheme of things, the loss of trying to find the truth for ourselves, politically, environmentally, etc. is sad. Although we may never all ascertain the same answer or reasonably deduce logic to the same end point change and truth demand that we keep doing so. Seek the truth even if what it come to be is not he answer you hypothesized. When in the Scientific Method we get a solution other than what was hypothesized we get the change to figure out how to change, how to grow, and how to reevaluate our stances.